Earlier this month, Sports Illustrated model Chrissy Teigen wrote an essay about her experience with post-partum depression, Huffington Post reports.
The essay appears in this month’s edition of women’s magazine Glamour, which has Teigen on its cover.
Teigen chose to write about this topic because she wanted to ignite a conversation about postpartum depression. The lack of public conversation, Teigen believes, is part of why it took her so long to get a diagnosis.
In her essay, Teigen discussed her “energetic pregnancy,” supportive work place at “Lip Sync Battle,” and “great life” with musician husband John Legend. Despite all of this, she suffered months of pain after their daughter Luna was born.
Teigen wrote about her physical and mental suffering in her trademark honest form. She cried all the time, slept on the couch, often couldn’t leave the house, lost her appetite, and felt nauseous. Her “bones hurt to the core.”
She did not know what could be wrong and felt like nothing should be wrong.
“I also just didn’t think it could happen to me,” she wrote. “I have a great life. I have all the help I could need: John, my mother (who lives with us), a nanny. But postpartum does not discriminate. I couldn’t control it.”
Finally, while at a physical, Teigen got answers.
I looked at my doctor, and my eyes welled up because I was so tired of being in pain. Of sleeping on the couch. Of waking up throughout the night. Of throwing up. Of taking things out on the wrong people. Of not enjoying life. Of not seeing my friends. Of not having the energy to take my baby for a stroll. My doctor pulled out a book and started listing symptoms. And I was like, “Yep, yep, yep.” I got my diagnosis: postpartum depression and anxiety.
Once she got her diagnosis, Teigen started taking antidepressants and is going to see a therapist.
Her honest essay has been lauded by many for opening up about postpartum depression and showing that it really can happen to anyone.